Work Folks.....

Good Morning!

I am taking my time to write this before my third co-worker gets here. Why am I doing it before she gets here? Because this blog is about her. God knows I love all people but she is the most irritating person ever. When me and my other co-worker are talking she is ALWAYS butting in. She is always in my computer screen. For instance, I was applying for another job(I gotta get the hell up out of here.....) and this broad is like, "What are you applying for?" and I am looking at her like, "Hoe sit down." I swear she is like the Federales. If someone is late for something she just HAS to tell the manager. When it was just me and my stickgirl we looked out for each other. If she was late and the supervisor called up and asked where she was I would just say she's downstairs(God forgive me) because we just looked out for each other. But this broad is trying to be dayum employee of the month. I'm going to have to watch her.....

Well, last night I went to a revival with my Pastor friend. It was held at Little Piney Grove Baptist Church in Creeds. The revivalist was Pastor C. LaRue. The scripture came out of the Book of Matthews and the topic was "What are you Afraid Of?" Well, ya'll it seems that I am afraid of the present. That means I have laid all my plans just right and I am a afraid something catastrophic will come along and ruin everything. As, I sat there last night I realized that my fear of the present is what has kept me from leaving my parents house. When I moved back in it was supposed to be for just one year, but now one year has turned into two. And why? Because I am afraid that if I try to get back out there on my own I will fail. If I fail this time it will be even more detrimental because it will just be me and my daughter and I don't want to be solely responsible for our failure. I just pray that I grow stronger to step out on faith and do what it is that God has planned.

As for me and Pastor, we have been getting along GRAND. I never thought I would be involved with anyone decent never mind a preacher. He makes me feel like there is hope for all women that have been through the multitudes of losers. After my first date with him, I realized in all my 25 years of living, I had never been on a REAL date. Most of my dates up until this point have consisted of the following:

1. Hanging out with him and his boys partaking in herbal substances
2. Hanging out with him partaking in herbal substances
3. Going to Dinner on my dime

Dayum it feels good to be treated like a lady! I feel like Mary after she met her husband. It sounds corny but I may have found one of the last good, black, straight men on earth. There are plenty out there, it's just I think we as women today are conditioned to call the good ones corny and the ones that dress nice and treat yah like shizz the Bomb. Well I am here to tell you, if he has ugly shoes, we can get him new ones, if his teeth are crooked, we'll find an orthodontist, but there isn't anything you can do for a man with an ugly heart.